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Sourdough as Slow Philosophy

Posted on by Allan Johnson in Observations

Bread is one of the oldest human technologies, and once or twice a week when I feed my starter, I get to feel the quiet intimacy of participating in something ancient. The jar on the counter, alive with invisible life, asks nothing more than regular attention. A little flour, a little water, a little faith. The process become philosophical, a daily practice in patience and presence, and sourdough, for me, is not simply food; it is a mode of inquiry. It asks how transformation occurs, and at what pace we should approach that transformation.

Every sourdough baker learns early on that control is an illusion. The starter has moods, the dough responds differently each day, and the line between perfect proof and an epic collapse is razor-thin. In this small domestic theatre, the dough resists command, growing best when treated with care, not coercion. Byung-Chul Han’s The Burnout Society warns of the violence of acceleration, how the modern subject, obsessed with optimisation, loses the capacity for duration. But sourdough refuses this logic. It can’t be rushed, not by willpower, not by technology. The microbes moved at their own pace, and perhaps I have begun to as well.

Fermentation, after all, is transformation through decay. It is the art of letting things break down in order that something new may emerge. There is philosophy in this: a recognition that change requires dissolution. The sour tang of the starter, the slow bubbling, and the mingling of bacteria and yeast are all material lessons in collaboration and renewal. Our ecological lives, too, depend on unseen networks, on the fermentation of shared experience.

In a world addicted to instant results, fermentation becomes an act of quiet resistance. We live amid the tyranny of instant coffee, instant messages, instant gratification. Sourdough asks us to wait. It requires a slowness that verges on contemplation. Carlo Petrini’s Slow Food Movement began as a protest against fast food, but its real gift was philosophical: a reclamation of pleasure, locality, and rhythm. Baking, like slow thought, teaches that nourishment and wisdom arise through attention. To bake for oneself, or better, to bake for another, is to rejoin an economy of care rather than consumption. When I share a loaf, still warm from the oven, I’m reminded that slowness is also a form of generosity.

The sourdough jar reveals how we attend to it. Some days, the starter is buoyant, light, eager; on others, sluggish and heavy. It reflects not just temperature but temperament. My own perfectionism has often met its match in the unpredictable nature of fermentation. The failed loaves — dense, burnt, deflated — have taught me more than the flawless ones, and sourdough offers its own alchemical education. The process cannot be hurried; it thrives on warmth, patience, and rhythm.

When I take a loaf from the oven, I feel a satisfaction that the intellectual world rarely grants: here is a thing complete, made by hand, known through touch. The world slows, if only for a moment, and becomes sufficient.

Sourdough, then, becomes a teacher of right timing, a philosophy that ferments rather than forces. Its lessons are certainly not confined to the kitchen. I’ve begun to notice similar rhythms in my creative work, where projects now follow seasons rather than sprints. After years of academic urgency, I’m learning the value of waiting and of letting ideas ‘prove’. What emerges, when it finally does, carries more depth, less strain. Slow philosophy isn’t simply slow thinking but slow being: a willingness to inhabit processes rather than rush through them. Education itself could learn from this pedagogy of fermentation, where growth happens unseen, between the visible milestones.

To bake bread is to remember that life itself is leavened by care. The simplest rituals, when done attentively, become meditations on being alive. Whether it’s bread, gardening, sewing, or journaling, each act can be a form of everyday metaphysics where philosophy meets fingertips. The smell of bread cooling on the counter, the sound of the crust cracking as it releases its final breath, is a small hymn to time.

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Morning Rituals for a More Grounded Day

Posted on by Allan Johnson in artist's way, Observations

The early bird 40% off offer for The Artist’s Way Circle: A 12-Week Creative Journey closes at midnight tonight. In this powerful small-group experience, we will work through Julia Cameron’s classic book together, sharing insights, deepening our practice, and building a creative community that makes the journey feel less solitary and more alive.

For me, mornings have become less about rushing into productivity and more about creating a small pocket of time that feels set apart, a threshold into the day. This is, after all, what Julia Cameron invites us to do in The Artist’s Way: show up to the blank page before we show up to anyone else.

A ritual isn’t a routine; it is a way of marking time as meaningful. When I light a candle before writing, or make my coffee slowly in my V60 instead of rushing, I am reminding myself that this time is not just another item to cross off a list, it is where my life begins for the day. Mircea Eliade, in The Sacred and the Profane, writes about ritual as a way of stepping into ‘sacred time’, a space where the ordinary becomes charged with significance. For me, this might mean lighting a special candle that reminds me of that changing of the seasons going on at the moment, or pausing for a moment on the balcony to notice the light on the plants before I open my laptop. These small gestures are a way of crossing the threshold deliberately, rather than being dragged into the day half-awake.

Groundedness begins in the body. No amount of list-making and project management will make a difference if I wake up already scattered and tense. The first thing I try to do now is move. I have been trying to get into running again, which I alternate with indoor rowing (my preferred cardio of choice). And after years of not making progress or any form of commitment to resistance machines at the gym, I’ve taken up strength training with two simple dumbbells, which has been an absolutely fantastic development in my fitness journey–the trainers on FIIT have revolutionised my entire outlook on dumbbells. This comes alongside my yoga practice, which has been with me for nearly 25 years. The point is less about physical fitness (although, as I get older, I am becoming increasingly aware of the need to build lasting wellness) and more about arriving in my body. As Bessel van der Kolk reminds us in The Body Keeps the Score, our sense of safety and clarity begins somatically, not intellectually. If I can bring my nervous system into a calmer, more coherent state first thing, the rest of the day feels less like a battle.

Creativity thrives in spaciousness, not in haste. This is where Morning Pages come in—Julia Cameron’s influential practice of writing three longhand pages first thing in the morning. They are not intended to be polished or even interesting; they are more like clearing mental static, a way to compost the thoughts that would otherwise clutter the mind all day. I find that pairing them with something tactile—a favourite notebook, a good pen—enhances the ritual. (In The Artist’s Way Circle, we’ll not only practice Morning Pages but also discuss what they unlock: the surprising insights that surface when we permit ourselves to be imperfectly present.)

Not every ritual has to be still. A ten-minute stroll before sitting down to write can be as clarifying as a meditation cushion. The Go Jauntly app has been such a fantastic presence for me. Thich Nhat Hanh speaks beautifully about walking meditation as a way to arrive in the present moment, and I find that even putting on a playlist and tidying the kitchen can create that same bridging effect between sleep and wakefulness. The point is to let the mind settle before reaching for the phone, before taking on the noise of the world.

During my sabbatical, I’ve been focusing on testing and adjusting my daily habits so that when I return to a busy routine of teaching and administration in the new year, I will have a clear understanding of what best supports my growth and development. Protecting the first hour of the day is, I’ve come to see, an act of self-respect. Seneca reminds us that we are often more careful with money than with time, though time is the one thing we can never get back. I’ve started following a ‘no-scroll rule’ in the first hour of the day, and replaced it with going straight to the gym.

The key is not to design the perfect morning but to make a start, consistently. There have been mornings where the ritual falls apart—when I oversleep, or skip the gym entirely—but I’m learning that a ritual that only works on perfect days isn’t really a ritual at all. The point is to keep coming back. James Clear’s Atomic Habits puts it simply: habits compound over time. A short, wobbly practice is better than a grand plan you never do.

This time of year feels like an invitation to recommit. I’ve always felt that September carries more of a ‘new year’ energy than January—it must be the academic calendar still in my bones. This month, I’m choosing to double down on the things that anchor me: lighting a candle before email, a few minutes of breathing exercises, and breakfast that feels nourishing rather than hasty. I’d love for you to consider what this season might invite for you.

Ultimately, a grounded morning is an act of creative resistance. In a culture that would have us wake up and immediately start scrolling, choosing ritual is choosing presence. So tonight, ask yourself: how do you want your mornings to feel for the next twelve weeks? And if you are ready to experiment—with ritual, with creativity, with spaciousness—I’d love for you to join us in The Artist’s Way Circle. The early-bird 40% discount closes at midnight tonight, and there are just a few spots left. Your mornings—and your creative life—might look completely different on the other side.

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Autumn Creativity Awaits: Upcoming Events

Posted on by Allan Johnson in creativity

As the leaves turn and the pace of life shifts, autumn is the perfect season to nurture your creative self. Whether you’re a writer, artist, academic, or thinker, this fall I’m offering a range of events designed to support your practice, spark fresh ideas, and help you stay focused and inspired.

🎨 Weekly Creative Flow Sessions – Free
Dedicated time to write, draw, or work on your projects alongside other creatives. No pressure, just presence, energy, and support. Quiet, structured sessions to help you start, focus, and finish your creative work in good company.
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📖 12-Week Artist’s Way Circle
Dive deep with Julia Cameron’s classic book, The Artist’s Way, bringing the work to life in community with practical exercises and reflections to reclaim your creative voice. Weekly 90-minute circles for reflection, sharing, and growth.
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🧘 Mindfulness for Creatives – Evening Workshop
Learn mindfulness techniques specifically for creatives and academics. Cultivate focus, flow, and inspiration in your daily practice in this 2.5-hour workshop filled with science-backed insights and practical exercises and tools.
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Autumn is a season of new beginnings and renewed energy. Whether you’re seeking free flow time, structured accountability, or a transformative creative journey, there’s a place for you in these sessions. I’d love to see you there—let’s make this autumn a season of inspiration, focus, and creative growth.

What is a Course in Miracles?

Posted on by Allan Johnson in Observations

If you were to glance at the cover of A Course in Miracles, you might find it a little intimidating.

Gold-embossed title. No back cover blurb. Dense text. Three volumes.

It doesn’t exactly scream “approachable.”

Add to that a name like A Course in Miracles—and it’s understandable why many people assume it’s either ultra-religious, uncomfortably mystical, or some obscure New Age self-help project from the 1970s.

But here’s the truth, and it might surprise you: The Course is none of those things.

It’s not a religion. It’s not a belief system. And it’s not trying to sell you a new worldview.

At its heart, A Course in Miracles is a method of mental and emotional clarity. A structured way of exploring your perceptions, undoing habitual fear-based thinking, and reclaiming the peace that’s already available beneath the noise of the mind.

So What Is It, Then?

Let’s step back a moment.

The Course was written in the late 1960s and early 70s by Helen Schucman, a clinical psychologist at Columbia University. She described it as a form of inner dictation—words that came to her during a time of personal and professional strain, in response to a growing desire to find “a better way” of relating to the world.

Regardless of how we frame its origin, the Course is remarkable in one key respect: it speaks in symbolic, poetic language, but offers psychologically rigorous insights into how perception works—and how often we are the source of our own suffering without realising it.

It doesn’t ask you to believe in anything. Not in the traditional sense. In fact, one of its opening lines is:

“This is a course in miracles. It is a required course. Only the time you take it is voluntary.”

It’s not referring to belief or theology. It’s referring to a kind of deep inner retraining—a shift in how you meet your thoughts, how you interpret experience, and how you move through relationships, conflict, and uncertainty.

A Practice of Undoing, Not Adding More

Most spiritual systems (and most self-help programs) are about adding more.

More positive habits. More affirmations. More rituals. More goals. More ideas.

The Course is different. It’s not additive—it’s subtractive.

It says, essentially: you don’t need to become better, you need to remember who you already are beneath fear. And the way to remember is by undoing the thoughts that block your natural capacity for peace.

This includes thoughts like:

  • “I need to control this situation to be okay.”
  • “If I don’t prove my worth, I’ll be rejected.”
  • “Other people’s approval determines my value.”
  • “I can’t be happy until X happens.”

Rather than challenging those thoughts intellectually, the Course invites you to bring them into awareness and notice what they cost you. Not in moral terms, but in energy, clarity, and presence.

And then it offers an alternative—a quieter, more honest perception. One that doesn’t come from striving, but from stillness.

So, No Dogma? Really?

There’s a common misunderstanding that A Course in Miracles is part of a larger religious or spiritual institution. But it isn’t. There’s no church. No hierarchy. No initiations. y. And no penalties for disagreement.

The Course explicitly says:

“A universal theology is impossible, but a universal experience is not only possible but necessary.”

That experience, for the Course, is peace.

But not peace as a vague ideal. Peace as a felt experience of spaciousness. Of groundedness. Of being free from the constant effort to defend yourself against life.

Robert Holden, a longtime student and teacher of the Course, often describes it as “spiritual psychotherapy.” He calls it a practical, heartfelt path that clears away the false self—not by condemning it, but by recognising it was never needed in the first place.

What Happens in the Study Group?

This is why the Course is best approached with others.

Not because we need to believe the same thing—but because this kind of inner exploration thrives in gentle company. Somewhere between a book club, a reflection circle, and a slow-burn inner workout, our Sunday evening study group provides a regular space to unpack and embody the Course’s core ideas.

We meet weekly (Sundays 7.30–9.00 pm UK time) and work through the Text in small, digestible sections. There’s no pressure to speak, and no prior knowledge needed. The readings are thoughtfully paced to allow insight to land and ripple in your daily life.

Each session is rooted in quiet attention—not performance. You can reflect aloud, or simply listen and take in what resonates.

Over the course of 18 months, we’ll move through the entire Text—the foundation of the Course—together.

When you sign up, you’ll receive the full reading schedule so you always know what we’re covering.

A Language of Peace, Not Preaching

Because the Course uses words like “miracle” and sometimes borrows spiritual terms from Christian mysticism, some readers initially worry that it’s trying to impose a worldview. But the language is symbolic, not doctrinal.

If a word doesn’t resonate with you, you’re encouraged to reinterpret it in a way that does. The Course doesn’t ask for obedience—it asks for honesty. And it reminds us that truth doesn’t need to be defended; it simply needs to be experienced.

I often tell people: don’t let the language throw you. The Course isn’t asking you to believe in anything “supernatural.” It’s inviting you to recognise how many of your perceptions are distorted by fear—and how peace becomes available when those distortions dissolve.

It’s less “join us” and more “come and see.”

This Is a Practice of Clarity

And clarity, for many of us, is in short supply.

We’re overloaded with information, overwhelmed by choice, and often undernourished when it comes to stillness. What the Course offers is not a shortcut—but a framework. A rhythm. A return.

It’s not for everyone. But if you’re someone who’s felt that traditional paths don’t quite fit… or who’s looking for something deeper than the usual spiritual gloss… you may find in the Course a friend you didn’t know you were waiting for.

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What If You Could Train Your Mind for Peace?

Posted on by Allan Johnson in Observations

We live in a time when personal development is everywhere. Books, podcasts, apps, retreats—offering promises of clarity, balance, transformation. Yet for all the tools we now have at our fingertips, many of us still feel stuck in cycles of stress, comparison, anxiety, and low-level unease. We meditate, journal, affirm—but underneath, a quieter question lingers:

Why do I keep thinking in ways that don’t serve me?

A Course in Miracles doesn’t answer that question in the way most programs or teachings do. It doesn’t try to fix your life. It doesn’t teach you how to manifest your dream job, or how to wake up feeling inspired every morning. It doesn’t even really give advice.

Instead, it offers something far more radical: a training in how to undo fear at the level of thought. Not by fighting it. Not by spiritually bypassing it. But by recognising how much of what we call “reality” is coloured by unconscious habits of mind—and learning, very gently, to choose a different lens.

The Course tells us: “Nothing real can be threatened. Nothing unreal exists. Herein lies the peace of God.”

That sounds mystical, and it is. But it’s also incredibly practical. It points to a profound principle: most of what we spend our time defending, controlling, resisting, or avoiding… isn’t actually real. It’s based on thoughts we’ve inherited, stories we’ve absorbed, and fear patterns we mistake for wisdom.

And yet—there is another way of seeing. And we can learn it. That’s what A Course in Miracles invites us to do.

Not a Religion, But a Mindset Shift

For many people, the word “Course” suggests a study program, while “Miracles” sounds like something out of a spiritual fantasy novel. It’s no wonder people hesitate to pick it up. But behind the slightly intimidating title is something remarkably down-to-earth: a process.

The Course is made up of three parts:

  1. A Text that lays out the underlying framework for how we perceive the world, and how we might begin to shift our perception.
  2. A Workbook, offering a lesson for every day of the year, each designed to undo a particular block to awareness.
  3. A brief Manual for Teachers, which clarifies how to embody and share the Course’s core principles.

What’s unique about the Course is that it doesn’t ask us to adopt new beliefs. It doesn’t claim to be the only way. In fact, it repeatedly says it’s just one path among many. But it is precise. And if you feel drawn to it, it works deeply.

The Course teaches that the world we see is shaped by the thoughts we think. But unlike most positive psychology, it doesn’t suggest we simply replace negative thoughts with nicer ones. Instead, it asks us to recognise the root of our misperception—fear, judgment, separation—and to bring those habits into awareness, where they can be gently released.

This is not about willpower. It’s not about becoming a better version of yourself. It’s about becoming aware of the part of your mind that thinks it has to struggle for worth, and learning how to soften its grip.

A Path Practised by Many (Even If You Don’t Know It)

You may have encountered the Course without realising it.

Marianne Williamson’s A Return to Love—a breakout spiritual classic in the 1990s—was drawn directly from her experience as a Course student. Oprah, who championed the book, has spoken about how the Course shaped her understanding of forgiveness and emotional responsibility. Gabrielle Bernstein built much of her early work around making Course ideas more accessible to a younger generation.

And yet for all this quiet influence, the Course remains relatively underground—a word-of-mouth path. That’s partly because it’s not easy to summarise. It’s not designed for social media snippets. It asks for attention, and offers clarity in return.

Why Study the Course in a Group?

Like many spiritual texts, A Course in Miracles is best read slowly, with space to reflect, question, and apply. It isn’t something you power through. In fact, many people return to it again and again over years—each time discovering something they didn’t see before.

That’s why I’ve created an 18-month study group, meeting weekly on Sunday evenings from 7.30 to 9.00pm UK time.

We take the Text section by section—reading together, reflecting aloud or in silence, noticing how these teachings meet our real lives. There’s no pressure to contribute, no expectations of previous study. Just an invitation to explore what happens when we train the mind for peace rather than protection.

Once you register, you’ll receive the full reading schedule. You can join each week or come when you can. The rhythm is slow, sustainable, and designed to create space for integration rather than overwhelm.

Some people come with a long-standing interest in the Course. Others are completely new. Some are therapists, teachers, or coaches looking to deepen their personal practice. Others are simply seeking an anchor—something intelligent and transformative that doesn’t ask them to leave their critical thinking behind.

Miracles, Redefined

In the Course, a miracle isn’t a supernatural event. It’s a shift in perception—from fear to love, from control to trust, from attack to understanding. These are the quiet revolutions that can change a life from the inside out.

And they happen, not because we force them, but because we create the conditions for them to arise.

In a world that often feels fast, fragmented, and fraught with uncertainty, the Course offers something rare: a path of steady, unhurried insight—one that helps us see ourselves and others more clearly, and respond from a place of genuine freedom.

You’re Invited

If something in you feels curious, even if you’re unsure what to make of the Course, you’re warmly invited to join us. There’s nothing to prove. No need to sign up to a belief system. Just a willingness to explore what happens when we start training our minds not to panic, but to listen.

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